Journal Entry #3

Ricky: 2.8 lbs
Reese: 2.8 lbs

   Busy busy day! We visited you 3 times today! Our night visit was great! I held Reese while Daddy held Ricky for a whole hour!!! It is so hard to describe to other parents that get to hold their babies as much as they want how special every minute I hold either of you is.
   Reese got moved to preemie diapers which take up half of his body because he goes potty so much. My boy is getting a reputation!
   Ricky is as rotten as ever! You don't want to be bothered by anyone! Very stubborn even at this age. Reminds me of someone...

Always and Forever-
   Mommy

10 days old!!!!

P.S. 3 nurses told me to have a beer!!! Said I worry too much (who me?) and that it would help milk production.  Should be interesting!

Journal entry #2

 Ricky: 2.7 lbs
 Reese: 2.7 lbs

  Mommy was here on time with your milk delivery! It's 8am and we need to wait 30 minutes for feeding time. You are both on feeding tubes and eat every 3 hours. Right now you eat 7ml per meal.

  I just took a peek and you are both wearing knit hats that are adorable. You are on tummy time and I think you may be in heaven! I think these visits are keeping me going. XOXO

  We had nurse Barbara.

Always and Forever-

Mommy

  This is my 3rd visit today. I held Ricky while daddy held Reese. We were both in heaven!

  Today I got a call from the doctor telling me you both have a level III brain bleed. Normally that would be bad but...they can't tell in your actions. Typically they would see apnea or seizures within the first week but you boys are strong! I love you so much and will be here in the morning! ;-)

Nurse Starla

Always and Forever-

 Mommy

First time holding my babies!

July 4th, 2010. Mommy and Daddy walked in expecting to massage the most beautiful heads I have ever seen when Nurse Starla asked if I wanted to hold them for the first time. I was on cloud 9. That had to be one of the most amazing days of my life.

Mommy and Ricky

Mommy and Reese

My NICU journal: First Entry

 When the triplets were born I was told by a nurse to journal while waiting at their bedside. I didn't start it until they were a week old and stopped when I was able to do more with them! Who wants to write in a silly old journal when you can have a baby in your arms? I am backdating all of these to the entry dates. :-) These are speaking to the boys...


  Today has been the hardest day so far. Since I was released from the hospital on Thursday, I have been visiting both of you 2 or 3 times a day. Daddy wanted a turn this morning so I didn't get my visit. I miss you so very much. Luckily I get to see you every night at 8pm. NICU is closed from 6:30-8pm daily. I wait every night for those doors to open.

  We are only allowed to have "hands on" contact every 6 hours. I come at 8pm so I can massage those precious little heads and if I am lucky, they let me change your diaper. :-)

  A nurse suggested I leave a journal at your bedside to write in daily- so here I am!

  Today you are both one week old. I am so in love with both of you, it surprises me. I never thought I could love another like I love Cameron...and you both stole another piece of my heart.

  I will write again tonight.

                                                                                                   Love Always-
                                                                                                       Mommy


Later that night:

  Ricky 2.6 lbs
  Reese 2.6 lbs

  What an amazing night!! Nurse Starla let mommy hold you both for the first time! They call it a kangaroo hold- it was wonderful! You were both so peaceful.

  Upon arriving, Starla was working with Ricky so I was able to help. I held you for 20 minutes. Once we moved to Reese we discovered poop all over! Way to go pumpkin! :-) Mommy changed it and actually loved every minute of it!

  I will be here first thing in the morning to bring milk. I love you both so much! Kisses and hugs! ;-)


                                                                                                                Always and Forever,
                                                                                                                             Mommy

Robbie became an angel

June 16th I had a scheduled apointment with my regular OB/GYN. The day before was my birthday and we spent the day swimming and enjoying virgin margaritas. I had not felt Robbie kick but kept it to myself because the thought of my baby girl passing away on my birthday was just too much to handle. When we went in the Dr looked for her on the portable machine and couldn't find anything. He moved us into another room with a better machine and several minutes later he informed us that her heart had stopped. I can't describe that feeling. I failed to protect her and provide for her. How could I have let my child die?

She made it to 25 weeks which was 11 days before the boys came into the world. There is never a day that I don't thank God for letting me having her. I didn't know that kind of love was possible in that short of a time.

June 10th- Bad turn

Through research I knew that Robbie Nicole was ok as long as her condition did not "reverse". I went to the specialist today and that was the news. I knew it was only a matter of time. If I was just a little further along...

22 weeks- Pic

22 weeks...