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Monday, June 13, 2011

Our first time in a BIG pool!

We went swimming for the first time at Tiana's pool. All the kids came and it was REALLY relaxing! Ricky is a little fish. He kicks his legs the entire time....even when we lift him out of the water. Reese seems to relax and take it easy in the water. Its amazing how they are so different and both so wonderful.




Of course our big brother Cameron and big sister Zoe played and splashed with us! We are so lucky to have two older children that adore the babies!

Thursday, June 9, 2011

These nights never end well..

I find myself tonight in a full house that everyone but me is sleeping in. This week/month/year has been so emotionally exhausting...the only way I think I keep it together is that I am so busy I dont have time to stop. And think. Like tonight.

My mind is constantly thinking of the past. The future. The what if's. The why me. The why her.

I can't live there though. I can't linger there too long.

I am the mother of 5. I have to keep going and stay strong. I can't make them live in her shadow. In my dreams. Its not fair.

So I will give myself tonight. And any other nights I am left alone. And I will leave it there. I will try.